Leaving again

It's time again to make an exit. That was my promise. Love and leave. I have loved as much as i could. Now i have to make my way to the infinite. All these forms only need you when they have nothing else to do. Or when you are destined to be the one to share a moment with them. All these forms are selfish. They need you for their own selfish purpose. But there are a few who really love, unconditionally. They give, they do not ask. I have chosen to be the latter. I have given my love, my time, my words and my actions. And now when i need, i will not ask from a form. I will ask from the formless. 

So here is my request. Help me face and understand this dilemma. Give me love to be unattached and to be able to forgive. let me not judge and move on with a free mind. i know, they will do what they want. let not their actions and words affect my peace and progress. Heal my mind, mend my heart and connect me to the one. Liberate me from the past and the future. Center me in the present. I know that this moment is all there is. So let the feeling be in sync with the knowing. Empty me off all desire and fill me up with bliss. Be here with me now. 

Clarity

And it happened. The mirror worked. I saw the reflection so clearly. I saw myself. It was painful and surprising. It was comforting and healing. I saw how i had changed. I saw what i had become. Then i met my maker in a flash. There was lightning, forgiveness and understanding, all happening simultaneously.

I went to the mountain and god spoke. I met my eternal friend who has guided me always.  i acknowledged and appreciated all that had been done for me. I couldn't see it in the past because of my ego, but now i could see clearly. I apologized  for not giving as much as i had taken. But the biggest hearts never ask for anything, they only give, and that too with a smile. I was given forgiveness and another chance at life.

I promised myself that i would never look for anything else but the eternal. That i would dedicate my life being and living it. That i would not expect anything from any other form. That i would love and leave. 

I see it coming!

is it really happening? the picture of the form that has been a channel for so long has been showing itself for many days now. the name of the company that called me for work is that of the picture. the signs on the road and the signs from the friends have been coming too. how is this happening? feels like the long lost dream has come alive and wants to become a reality. i really don't know what to do about it. i am trying to stay present and focus on whats important at this moment.

i had realized when this sudden solitude was gifted to me that it was for something pure and special. i kept asking you why you were making me do all this. now the answers are slowly coming to me. i have to find my bliss. i am coming close and then losing it again. but i am also watching all this happen. A sudden twist of events had left me confused. now, gradually the clarity is coming again. i know you stand by my side and smile. i can feel your presence now.

the slavery to the mind has to end in order to be totally free. bless me with the courage and understanding that will help me heal and let go completely. i took a step today which i feel good about. let each step of mine be full of love and patience. i know somewhere deep inside it's all going to be miraculous now.