Angels all around!

As i was falling ..... someone whispered in my ear " Have faith, there are only 2 things that can happen, either god is going to catch you or he will teach you how to fly".

i closed my eyes and made peace with my fall. And then the miracle happened. An angel came and caught me mid way. she had messages from the the heavens above. she kissed my tears away.  she made me smile and took me to the world i had forgotten. she gave me the love i had once lost. She made everything alright.
i couldn't believe that i was so happy in my pain, so perfect in my imperfections and so strong in my weakness.

I closed my eyes and let go of my fears.
i felt her hands wipe away my tears
Safe and sound, we landed on the ground
i opened my eyes and saw angels all around. 

So long...

Took it for about a year and a half. Disrespect and insensitivity. Took it all in stride. Everyday the bucket went to the well, today the bottom just dropped off. Did it all for love. now i swim through the depths of darkness as my reality emerges from the illusion that once surrounded me.

i reach out for the only one that understands and make my confession in humility. i am here now. i accept this moment as it is. i witness the play of creation as i watch myself hurting inside.  i read your signs. i receive your messages. i feel the freedom that has come with this loss. My suffering stares me straight into my eyes and i face it with faith and patience.

I AM 

Gone with the Moon

Has it ended.  the signs told me it has.  i sit in my temple remembering how i went to the world. before i entered i knew i would have to face all this. i knew your ways. i knew your mind.  there is pain and pleasure.  there is love and and suffering.  i dwell in the space that has always been mine and i gift a part of it to you.

the world made me forget my enlightenment and obscured the truth. Now i see it. it is nobody's fault. this is just the way the world is. watch every step. i was told that the world will make you dirty and coming back to the temple will purify you again. My purification has begun. as all desire dies. as i let go of the only thing that matters, i feel my peace coming back to me. the place of my work helps me express my state of mind.

mother sends me love. i receive it with gratitude. things stop affecting me. clarity accompanies me and guides me through this chaos. i forgive all. i empty myself of all thoughts. I wake up in the dream once again. Leaving the dream behind, i silently and patiently wait for you to wake up and join me in this one single reality. i know, when it happens, you shall find peace too. till then, i pray for you and send you my love. 

Change

 It has become evident. Entered the world about a week ago. 7 years ago, in a different town and in a different workplace, i did the same job. You were there with me then, you are here with me now. Obviously, you too are in a different form. But your loving presence makes me feel the same as it did then. There is more, the live music has now gone to the studio. The relationship does not have a name anymore. I cook my own food, clean my house and wash my clothes with a little help from my friends.

Intoxication also comes in a different form now. Life is more peaceful, knowledge is complete and wisdom has revealed its true nature. I am content. Accepting it all. Enjoying most of it and enthusiastic about some parts of it. Now i understand the sun, the moon and the stars. I clearly see the signs and i know the secrets of destiny. Power of love drives my world and i recognize my angels. I am back in the same place but everything is new like it has always been. The only major difference being -  i feel it and the mind is free now. 

This feeling I have...

the lightening spoke to me and told me of your return
the flower felt the same, is it really my turn?

you have been gone too long , but something inside holds on
to the memories of you.... what is it that I am going through?

the change manifests and we come a full circle
our story gets more interesting and moves like a turtle

you have been liking your journey and i have been liking mine
who knows how it will happen and where will it take us this time

here I sit open to all possibility as angels keep me company
You smile in my head and I smirk at our destiny

what games we have had to play....you had to leave and i had to stay
he is going to send you back , the One who once took you away.....

To that One I surrender, to that One I pray....
May you  always be happy and  loved, come what may...