Set the captives free

you sensed it much before the words revealed it. It's alright. Now something tells me, i can handle it. so much practice of letting go. leaving the past behind one more time. breaking the habit of judgment and drawing conclusions. let my love flow wherever it wants to go. setting free is what love does and it does it beautifully.

surrender must be complete. the change has manifested. as expected, it is absolutely shocking and very predictable at the same time. sad and relieving. absurd and laughable. Interesting and boring. i am meant for substance and clarity. my days of confusion and playing around are over. You will get what you deserve. I will give you that gift which is most precious. I shall gift you a free life.

Suddenly, focus happens by deleting unnecessary distraction. i add more value with a natural subtraction. i end this story of fatal attraction. I sit beside real love and sip my cup of peace. my words flow into the air and relieve me from the burden of suffering. Thank you for this lesson. I've lived in the prison. Now i value my freedom. open the cage. i am ready to fly. This time i shall smile and someone else will cry. Thats for the balance. 

the gift of space

now i shall make my presence felt through my absence. My voice shall reside in silence. If you listen to the silence you will know what i mean. I shall not turn bitter or cynical, i shall only become detached. i have realized what has happened. I will take this positively. Seeing things in the right light, i shall make the most out of this space gifted to me. I have given you what i have, The Eternal Void. Trust me on this, it is everything.

Receiving

 
with gratitude. Its been a week. you called and i answered. then a flood of love and affection came and washed my worries away. You came and held my hand. Everything and everyone helped. It was a special moment. Fire met fire. the power was evident. Love stood by my side as i watched in wonder. there are so many aspects to you. Experienced the innocence and purity of the relationship. Got more than i ever asked for. the flower came and spread its fragrance in the garden of my life. the mother felt it and awakened to the love.

The wisdom came and made me realize the truth behind the illusions. now i am surer then i ever was. this love is not yours or mine. It is the love of god. We have to trust it. We have to be grateful for it. We have to receive it, experience it and then let it go. After an amazing week full of love, friendship, music and laughter, i came back to the Goddess, who has now taken another step towards me. I don't know what is happening, but i know its all happening for the good. Something tells me that the time is drawing closer. The time for what? i have no clue. this ride is becoming more and more colourful with every passing day. The love is increasing and so is my ability to recognize it. Thank you for this high. For this understanding and for a beautiful life. 

The Power

The Power of your love is calling me. when your love is so strong, how can anything go wrong. The strength and confidence in your words will manifest your desire into reality. i can see your dreams already coming true. How is it happening, i don't know.something tells me, i'll have to go. it is not just you but others too.

The mother calls for her son to return. The friends are missing the times of fun. The lover is sure that the time has come. i shall leave now, my work is done. 

if you've forgotten

let me remind you that love is all around.
you have always been free and never been bound

the stories that you tell yourself are not always true,
all that you'll ever need is deep inside of you

the world is just reflecting all your thoughts,
something invisible is calling all the shots

this is the day when it all falls in place,
i can see the light, i can feel the grace

there will be times when you won't feel this alive,
no matter what the love will always survive

thank you for your blessings and all the angels that you send,
i recognize the beginnings as well  as the ends

there is this broken heart that has been filled with light,
i have seen it struggle and i have seen it fight

heal those who are suffering and send them your signs,
let them know that eventually everything will be fine 

Don't know what to write

but i still keep on pressing the keys on the keyboard. the day started well with a lot of positive encouragement on the work front. Ideas and opportunities were recognized in abundance. Later, when everything seemed alright. Something happened. A sickening feeling sunk in with a message from someone i thought i loved. Thoughts of leaving this continually strained relationship started making rounds in my head. The signs spoke in favour of the thoughts. but i still remember that the world is a reflection of the mind. so i didn't take it too seriously. Another sign pointed out the lack of commitment and the havoc it has wreaked on my independence and my self-worth. The constant state of insecurity due to this imbalanced relationship has started affecting my health.

when i asked for a sign to leave, the answer was "looking good" and when i asked if there was love, the answer was "there is no love at all". i also remember my own mind telling me and my being feeling that this is the one for me. but i also know somewhere inside that the  time is not now. couldn't reach the flower or maybe didn't want to. the moon reached for me and gave me strength and hope. a strange feeling that something is making me do all this has taken over. Being unable to freely express what i feel has got me trapped in.  Help me break free. Come to me and heal me. open me up for real love.  

Leaving again

It's time again to make an exit. That was my promise. Love and leave. I have loved as much as i could. Now i have to make my way to the infinite. All these forms only need you when they have nothing else to do. Or when you are destined to be the one to share a moment with them. All these forms are selfish. They need you for their own selfish purpose. But there are a few who really love, unconditionally. They give, they do not ask. I have chosen to be the latter. I have given my love, my time, my words and my actions. And now when i need, i will not ask from a form. I will ask from the formless. 

So here is my request. Help me face and understand this dilemma. Give me love to be unattached and to be able to forgive. let me not judge and move on with a free mind. i know, they will do what they want. let not their actions and words affect my peace and progress. Heal my mind, mend my heart and connect me to the one. Liberate me from the past and the future. Center me in the present. I know that this moment is all there is. So let the feeling be in sync with the knowing. Empty me off all desire and fill me up with bliss. Be here with me now. 

Clarity

And it happened. The mirror worked. I saw the reflection so clearly. I saw myself. It was painful and surprising. It was comforting and healing. I saw how i had changed. I saw what i had become. Then i met my maker in a flash. There was lightning, forgiveness and understanding, all happening simultaneously.

I went to the mountain and god spoke. I met my eternal friend who has guided me always.  i acknowledged and appreciated all that had been done for me. I couldn't see it in the past because of my ego, but now i could see clearly. I apologized  for not giving as much as i had taken. But the biggest hearts never ask for anything, they only give, and that too with a smile. I was given forgiveness and another chance at life.

I promised myself that i would never look for anything else but the eternal. That i would dedicate my life being and living it. That i would not expect anything from any other form. That i would love and leave. 

I see it coming!

is it really happening? the picture of the form that has been a channel for so long has been showing itself for many days now. the name of the company that called me for work is that of the picture. the signs on the road and the signs from the friends have been coming too. how is this happening? feels like the long lost dream has come alive and wants to become a reality. i really don't know what to do about it. i am trying to stay present and focus on whats important at this moment.

i had realized when this sudden solitude was gifted to me that it was for something pure and special. i kept asking you why you were making me do all this. now the answers are slowly coming to me. i have to find my bliss. i am coming close and then losing it again. but i am also watching all this happen. A sudden twist of events had left me confused. now, gradually the clarity is coming again. i know you stand by my side and smile. i can feel your presence now.

the slavery to the mind has to end in order to be totally free. bless me with the courage and understanding that will help me heal and let go completely. i took a step today which i feel good about. let each step of mine be full of love and patience. i know somewhere deep inside it's all going to be miraculous now. 

Fly Rasta

something wonderful has happened. feeling freer than ever. the signs told me before the feeling arrived. i didn't believe it until things started changing right in front of my eyes.  the love, the compassion and all the good things were always here. i was just looking for them at the wrong place.

Someone had become an unhealthy influence on me so i had to let that person go. now after this i feel healthy again. only a healthy body is not enough. the mind has to be healthy too. be around those who bring positive thoughts inside you. or at least around those who do not bring negative thoughts. be grateful for the things you have and for the lessons life teaches you. be at peace with the present moment. if something disturbs your peace, watch and see why it is happening. if you can work on it and make it alright. Stay. if not, then leave. Don't let anything disturb your inner peace.

false happiness and fake people will someday experience true joy and reality. pray for them and let them be. if they can't learn now. it is not their time. but their time will come soon. real soon. wish them luck and move on. Life has something better in store for you.

now this is

without realization. another cycle is complete. like always it begins with desire, turns into attachment and ends with ego death. A learning and and a blessing in disguise. this time it is different. i hurt throughout it. so after it ended, i don't hurt like i did before. Letting it go so many times has given me much practice. now i have to practice more consciously.

 this time i don't blame anyone; not even myself. What had to happen, happened. it had to happen through me. i was just a medium. for both, positive as well as the negative energies. the world can praise me for the perceived good and can criticize me for the apparent bad. I take non of it. i just played my role. There were times that i enjoyed playing this role and there were times when i didn't like it one bit. but i played it alright. I am okay now. i analyzed and pondered over all of it while it happened. i have no motivation for any further analysis or judgments. with awareness and from the ego, i have seen it all.

I don't even have the urge to empty myself. whatever is inside is fine by me and whatever isn't, will not be.
i am humbled and patient again. What must be, will be. 

Door to Door

one door closes and another opens. Once again the new becomes old and leaves; the old becomes new and is all set to arrive. I have to let it go with love and optimism. i can see that the love has taken over and the ego has stepped back. My prayer to you is to help me respond with love. Warn me if my ego starts to get a grip on me, and in silence - let me watch.

Help me cleanse my doors of perception so that i can see the whole instead of blurred fragments. let my awareness expand infinitely, let the truth shine through the illusions that my mind projects. Let me realize the one within and reflect it without. Let me be unaffected by pleasure and pain. let me rest in the eternal bliss always. Send me your love and light just like you did right now.   

Angels all around!

As i was falling ..... someone whispered in my ear " Have faith, there are only 2 things that can happen, either god is going to catch you or he will teach you how to fly".

i closed my eyes and made peace with my fall. And then the miracle happened. An angel came and caught me mid way. she had messages from the the heavens above. she kissed my tears away.  she made me smile and took me to the world i had forgotten. she gave me the love i had once lost. She made everything alright.
i couldn't believe that i was so happy in my pain, so perfect in my imperfections and so strong in my weakness.

I closed my eyes and let go of my fears.
i felt her hands wipe away my tears
Safe and sound, we landed on the ground
i opened my eyes and saw angels all around. 

So long...

Took it for about a year and a half. Disrespect and insensitivity. Took it all in stride. Everyday the bucket went to the well, today the bottom just dropped off. Did it all for love. now i swim through the depths of darkness as my reality emerges from the illusion that once surrounded me.

i reach out for the only one that understands and make my confession in humility. i am here now. i accept this moment as it is. i witness the play of creation as i watch myself hurting inside.  i read your signs. i receive your messages. i feel the freedom that has come with this loss. My suffering stares me straight into my eyes and i face it with faith and patience.

I AM 

Gone with the Moon

Has it ended.  the signs told me it has.  i sit in my temple remembering how i went to the world. before i entered i knew i would have to face all this. i knew your ways. i knew your mind.  there is pain and pleasure.  there is love and and suffering.  i dwell in the space that has always been mine and i gift a part of it to you.

the world made me forget my enlightenment and obscured the truth. Now i see it. it is nobody's fault. this is just the way the world is. watch every step. i was told that the world will make you dirty and coming back to the temple will purify you again. My purification has begun. as all desire dies. as i let go of the only thing that matters, i feel my peace coming back to me. the place of my work helps me express my state of mind.

mother sends me love. i receive it with gratitude. things stop affecting me. clarity accompanies me and guides me through this chaos. i forgive all. i empty myself of all thoughts. I wake up in the dream once again. Leaving the dream behind, i silently and patiently wait for you to wake up and join me in this one single reality. i know, when it happens, you shall find peace too. till then, i pray for you and send you my love. 

Change

 It has become evident. Entered the world about a week ago. 7 years ago, in a different town and in a different workplace, i did the same job. You were there with me then, you are here with me now. Obviously, you too are in a different form. But your loving presence makes me feel the same as it did then. There is more, the live music has now gone to the studio. The relationship does not have a name anymore. I cook my own food, clean my house and wash my clothes with a little help from my friends.

Intoxication also comes in a different form now. Life is more peaceful, knowledge is complete and wisdom has revealed its true nature. I am content. Accepting it all. Enjoying most of it and enthusiastic about some parts of it. Now i understand the sun, the moon and the stars. I clearly see the signs and i know the secrets of destiny. Power of love drives my world and i recognize my angels. I am back in the same place but everything is new like it has always been. The only major difference being -  i feel it and the mind is free now. 

This feeling I have...

the lightening spoke to me and told me of your return
the flower felt the same, is it really my turn?

you have been gone too long , but something inside holds on
to the memories of you.... what is it that I am going through?

the change manifests and we come a full circle
our story gets more interesting and moves like a turtle

you have been liking your journey and i have been liking mine
who knows how it will happen and where will it take us this time

here I sit open to all possibility as angels keep me company
You smile in my head and I smirk at our destiny

what games we have had to play....you had to leave and i had to stay
he is going to send you back , the One who once took you away.....

To that One I surrender, to that One I pray....
May you  always be happy and  loved, come what may...

Wisdom, Power and Prosperity.

 I give you to the world and the world to you. Go where you want to go and do what you want to do. You have taught me well about the new earth. Change is never a problem, resistance to change is. This time someone else called me and asked me to let it go. It reminded me that I was on the right path. And as I have always observed, the moment I let it go, it starts coming to me. But I must let go of it unconditionally. without expecting any results.



Smile when your heart is sad and you will experience the real joy. Give when you  have less and realize the ultimate abundance. have an intention to help and help shall reach. Be what you want the world to be and see the world around you change into your own reflection.

Feel the power of creation within you and have faith in it. Rest all shall fall in place. Love & Light.