Before the Rush ends....

So much has happened. As images of betrayal left the mind, something that had been waiting patiently came from behind. The wounds were healed by the loving touch. Everything was felt without saying much. The value of the priceless comes with the experience of the endless.

A life so perfect has space for everything. i never speak to what you think you are. My love has found its place and my place has found its love. The timekeeper had the messages meant for you and me. i thank god that this time we both were so free. you speak to me everyday about something new. Now i never have to think about what i should or shouldn't do.

With your hand in mine i have transcended the sands of time. with you in my arms i have got back the calm. As i nourish your soul and you nourish mine. Something tells me it is all going fine. True, you have always been kind and few are the times i have been blind. i would neither forward nor rewind. Centered in the present, i shall recognize every sign. 

Time is Gone

It was good. Didn't try too much. all happens by itself. Nobody's fault but mine. Expectation messes it up. I don't want you anymore. I love you the same. its all okay. your face haunts the mind-street. the memories don't fade but get stronger. As the thinking gets clearer, only the positive stays; the negative loses its opaqueness and becomes transparent. just have to be patient. Have faith.

Another perfect wonder experienced. i leave you with love and well wishes. you will be missed like you are already being missed right now. i am happy that at least one of us recognized, realized and expressed the love that was being experienced. Freely i felt the heart beat for you, without hesitation i let it all out. there was nothing to hide. I was confident and sure. Ready to face it all, even those things that used to scare me once. There was so much love, fear had no place. But with you, that was not the case.   

Watch in wonder

looking at whats happening, i keep visiting the moment every now and then. this man that is living through me has a lot of people who care about him in a divine way. i have nothing to say, i just watch in wonder. what magic, what power, what illusion, what colors and what deceptions.

At peace, i laugh at your games and on your ways. while the mind worries, i sit back and witness the change. This invisible energy at work speaks to me. It gives me signs. it leads me to you. and you lead me to myself.
Just letting it all out. Want to empty myself. Something new will fill me up now. i am not thinking. 

A Message from Up Above

in the house of love. with people who are pure. i got my past attached to all and my future attached to none. that which connects us is all there is. the guitar has gotten better. the mind is clearer than ever. everything about you except the spirit is ever-changing.

new horizons are opening up slowly. the world is calling. the preview is powerful. you could have had it all but you have missed your chance. life chose it. it chooses according to your capacity to take it. you might over or underestimate yourself, but life won't. you will be true when you know what truth really  is. till then you can only pretend to be truthful.

how you fell from grace. how you got disconnected with the whole and got lost in your own imagined version of reality. how you want to have your cake and eat it too. how you have been using people to feel good about yourself. the change is coming to you. the storm is raging. Are you ready? Forget about yourself for a while. let it all turn to nothing. 

In the Rain....

one love. keeps speaking to me. Come, take an umbrella. you and me. lets take a walk. You play your game and i'll play my part. get wet. hold my hand. Come on, enough of your pretense. let go of your inhibitions.  Lets get it right this time.

Why not. i'll take my own sweet time. i can feel the power calling me. its all happening on its own. feels like a trip to the moon and back. what took so hard to forget was not even really there and whats really there can never be forgotten. 

Still so Strong!

you spoke to me today. the time was right and so was the way it all happened. it is hard to not let you know how i always think of you and  how i had been missing you so much. yet i have to restrain. Something tells me you have started feeling it. i could feel it in your voice.

suddenly after talking to you i started feeling much better than i was feeling before. your voice healed me. i saw you in a dream last night. Signs told me that you have been thinking about me. you have been missing me.  i have you in my heart and you have me in yours. When its time and when the almighty wills it, we'll come together for good. Till then my love will guide you and keep you safe. Just listen to what the heart says and have patience. Peace. 

Thank You!

The end of the most beautiful dream ever lived. It began with love and ended with more love. Always remained pure and innocent. I am satisfied and content. Your angel was the most astonishing creation i had ever seen or met. She took my breath away. First time in my life i felt such intensity, such serendipity.

Now i have to get back to reality. Here, its just me and my journey. I shall remember you always. All i want is for you to be happy. My love will be with you forever. When the realization happens, you will find yourself, and in that  you'll find me. Thanks for everything. God bless you. Peace. 

Road to NowHere

A road to nowhere. Who am I? Where do I come from and and where am I going?  The answers came before the questions. The inability of the human mind to understand the answers gave rise to the unnecessary questions. Live the answer. The answer is life. Not the word, but to which the word points to.

Yesterday, it was all revealed in an instant. the mind remembers and forgets. the soul stays connected to all creation, always. You can never become what you are because you already are "it". You can never find what you are because you are looking for yourself. It becomes a never ending chase.

Stop seeking, stop doing, stop thinking and then even stop stopping. Just be.  Like the mountain, like the sun, and then the realization will dawn. All will happen on its own. Witness the magic of creation and it will show you that you are all of it. The illusion of temporary separation ends with the realization of the permanent union. 

You have made it. I am Proud of you.

The heart always knows what the mind realises later. Even though you never expressed, i always knew. Now that you have, thank you.  You came with so much love. the smile on your face, the touch of your hand and the power of you words, move me. You humble me. I know how lucky i am to have you in my life. You've brought me back to the world that i had once left behind. Come whenever, leave whenever. this is going to be like what it is, Now and Forever.

With every passing moment it gets stronger. No one knows where it goes from here. You remind me  of how its all just a game. So lets play and enjoy ourselves. Life will take care of itself and love will find a way. 

Let GO!

letting it go...
for it to come back
for the feeling to flower in you
for you to know
what I always knew
for you to show
that its really true

no matter where I am, no matter what i do
there is this feeling, I am always with you

this time please let go of your inhibitions
please be free
the ego cannot be bigger than love
one day you'll see.
I shall wait with an open heart
I shall wait for eternity...

the love is not gone
it's just hiding in the corner
If you find it, you'll find me

Living colour

how is it that you are the last thought in the night and the first thought in the morning.
what am i to you? what do i say to you? Every time i feel my words get in my way.
suddenly, life is so colorful because of you. your beauty is beyond comparison. you stir it all up inside me; thoughts, emotions and feelings.

your words have so much power. your images move me. i have felt my heart skip a beat every time i see you in a different form. who are you? where have you come from? Deep inside i know that you are a part of me. A part of me that is beautiful, innocent, pure and precious. What i see in you is what i had in me. i lost it somewhere down the line. Maybe be you have come to remind me of who i really am.

tears fill up my eyes as my feelings turn into words while i write. my heart is heavy, not with pain but with joy. Joy of having you in my life. I am overwhelmed with the love i feel for you. what do i do with it. So i just close my eyes and pray for my love to reach you and make you happy. there is not much i can do except be grateful for  the miracle that unfolds every moment bringing me your love and light.

A Story So Close

you heard my call and came. Now you are thinking of me. i can feel your innocent love coming to me from everywhere. i know now how you unknowingly disguise your love in words and images. In your movements i have seen the dance of divinity. You know that, i too, don't know and i am just going with the flow. Where is it going to take us? what will it make us do? I am just happy for all the times i got to be with you.

there's something that keeps you very close. something that will never let you go. something that will keep you in the flow. How are you so perfect? or is it just me who sees the perfection. i have known a few who have seen it in you, but then these people have it in them too. 

After getting born again,  i asked for a gift and the gift was you. you came without knowing that you had come for me. but you always kept showing and only i could see. then there were nights when i stayed awake waiting to see your face. and days when i kept myself busy so i could stop the endless chase. But not for one moment did my heart deviate. It's not been easy to become mortal again. To have desire, to play with fire and pain.

Before i met you, i had died to this world. i neither had friend nor foe. neither like nor dislike. No ambition and no goals. I was living for nothing. With an empty mind and a lonely heart, i was wandering in space and time. Going wherever life was taking me. Sometimes i would ask myself - why this life? what for?  Then i would answer - Life is to Live. So live on.  Not for the past, not for the future, but for the present moment. LIVE NOW.

So i did that. whatever the present moment offered, i lived it totally. Even if it offered pain, i lived it. Loneliness, I embraced it like a long lost friend. Hatred, i accepted it like a flower from a lover. And then gradually, life started changing in ways that are beyond imagination. Love started flowing to me from all directions, god started speaking to me and freedom was not just a word anymore. And just when i thought it couldn't get any better, I met you.
You are the present.

Recognize

Now, we are. Recognition has happened. you know it and i know it. they don't understand. they don't feel it. who feels will know. Life is beginning and ending at the same time. goodbye, i have to go. you are still with me like you have always been. Every moment i am in communion with you. When its time, you'll realize what its all really about. If your illusions end, the face of reality will reveal yourself to you.


Time after time, i listen to the songs of life. they remind me of your presence. not who you think you are, but who you really are. If it could be defined in words, then you wouldn't exist, only words would. If it could be shown through images, then pictures would be enough, but that won't do. You are real; and that's why -
YOU.

A miracle. A wonder. A mystery.
the magic. the love. the creation.

All of it. you are.
None of it. You are.